I’ve always been so lonely
No one there for me to hold
And every night was just so cold
Oh don’t get me wrong I’ve been around
But I’ve resigned myself to thinking
Mine is just another story often told
Dapat ba akong magalit dahil hindi nya maalala birthday ko? Hindi ko naman birthday ngayon sa february pa. Tapos, hindi nya maaalala kung kailan. I mean alam ko kung ano kami. Waht. Basta, nakakabadtrip lang na nalimutan nya. Simple detail lang hindi nya matandaan. Hays. Babaw ko ba?
Kahit hindi ako ang may kasalanan. Ako pa din ang magssorry. Wala eh. Ganyan talaga.
Why is my college life very different with what I’ve red in books? They’re having their night life, drunk themselves with alcohol, while I’m up at night in front of the computer or I’m facing my books. They are going to school with cars and look for a place to park that also serves as meeting place for travel while I’m waiting for a jeepney to bring me in the school. They always came to school late or with hang over, while I go to school early for I dont want to be sanctioned. They overstayed in the gymnasium, while I only go to the gymnasium when I have PE class. They can wear any clothes they want, while I only wear uniform and corporate attire. They have after school activites, mine is going home. They stayed overnight with a friend’s condo unit while I sleep early in our own home. They have a great college life and I don’t have one.
Ako lang ba yung gustong pumasok dahil sayang tuition. Hahahaha. Ayoko ng mawalan ng pasok. Two weeks ng nammove prelims namin. Ano yung july 7? July 21 na. Napalitan na president ng BSU. Binagyo na. Habagat. Mabini Day. Sublian. Yung sa ramadan. Gusto ko na mag-exam kahit wala akong isasagot.
i’m fine. i’m okay, j.
Its hard to love someone you have no chance with. Giving so much care is never easy, after all, efforts will be wasted, you’ll always be taken for granted, you’ll always be a second choice or an option.
I’m sorry. I’m so difficult. I’m so miserable. I’m so hard to deal with. But this is me, I can’t be no one else. Thank you for those words. Now I know, I have a heart bc I feel it breaking. And still, I’m fine.